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A SIDS story
Just For Today by Vickie Tushingham

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Just for today, I will try to live through the next 24 hours and not expect to get over my child's death, but instead learn to live with it just one day at a time. Just for today, I will remember my child's life, not his death, and bask in the comforts of all those treasured days and moments we shared...Just for today, I will smile no matter how much I hurt on the inside, for maybe if I smile a little , my heart will soften and I will begin to heal. Just for today, I will reach out to comfort a relative or friend of my child, for they are hurting too, and perhaps we can comfort each other. Just for today, I will free myself from self-inflicted burden of guilt, for deep in my heart I know if there was anything in this world I could have done to save my child from death, I would have done it. Just for today, I will honor my child's memory by doing something with another child because I know that would have made my own child proud. Just for today, I will offer my hand in friendship to another bereaved parent, for I do know how they feel. Just for today, when my heart feels like breaking, I will stop and remember that grief is the price we pay for loving, and the only reason I hurt is because I had the privilege of loving so much. Just for today, I will not compare myself with others. I am fortunate to be who I am and to have had my child for as long as I did. Just for today, I will allow myself to be happy, for I know that I am not deserting my child by living on. Just for today, I will accept that I did not die when my child did, my life did go on, and I am the only one who can make that life worthwhile once more.

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